Everything happens for a Good Reason

Hm well ok that phrase is really damn cliche but it is so true. I thank God from the bottom of my heart that he let things happen the way it does. Maybe I was upset, even depressed, that I did not get to go to Mizpah. But that was then. I now realise that if I had went, I wouldn't have enjoyed the trip anyway since my aunt is critically ill right now. I probably wouldn't have known either and that would have been terrible.

So many things have happened which upsets me a lot but thinking back, it is all God's work for He knows which is best for me. The Mizpah reject incident. The London deport incident. Even the bitchest Boss incident? Everything can't go bad forever, something good is bound to happen right? What goes up must come down and vice versa right? And for every dark cloud there is a silver lining.

It is amazing how much I have grown to believe in God after Mizpah. Maybe before I was so angry with God because I thought He had cheated me so much. But ha ha ha that was just a child's thinking and even tho you guys wont believe it, i think I have grown up (even if it's a little) !

Okie now let's all pray for my aunt's health. May she wake up soon so that my grandma, my mom, and my other aunts, all can breathe a little easier.

Are you thinking of me guys?

Here I am in the office, work piling up but no heart to do. It's a sickening morning. I stepped in and had to hear (didnt listen :) ) the super annoying grumbling and whining of Auntie. darn it. Then I had to clean up the rabbit's cage. Poor little thing. It tried to kill itself yesterday. I think it knows no one loves it anymore! Not true Xiao Pee!! * hugs rabbit super duper tightly *

Anyway I find myself dragging to go to work nowadays. It's not my job, really! I truly love what I'm doing and i find myself learning and challenging myself in new ways every other day. Just that... aiya... my BOSS lah. She is just damn...erm... bossy?! She doesnt give me space and treats me like a child all the time. I think she's just desperate to show her superiority (sp?!) lah! After all in the office there're only 4 staff - 1) herself 2) Auntie 3)50 yr old Cool Tai tai Lady 4) me. She obviously dont really dare to " scold " the 2 older ladies so she probably vent her anger on me. Crap. Crap. Crap. That's why I feel like I can't wait to quit my job. She breathes down my neck all the time, watches my every move and doesn't approve whatever work I've done. Something's always not right with my work! Yaaargh!!

To my buddies in India, I know you wont be reading this (haha) but I'm sure you guys are having a wonderful time with the kids there ( I have some photos of Mizpah on my table!). It's 10 am here I dunno what time is it there but if you guys are saying your prayers, do remember to ask God to help me :D maybe tell God to ask Boss to quit or something? heh heh