tough half year

half a year has gone by and so many things happened these past few months. major unfortunate things! recently something very scary (i really really mean it) took place, in fact i can say that it is still taking place. i dunno whether i should go into detail because it isnt something that is normal and a topic that is quite sensitive. this incident has left me quite paranoid and cowardly (more than before lor). aiya ok lah, a lot of ppl will go "??!" when they read this, so i shall reveal a bit... someone i know got possesed(sp?)! for real dudes. anyway i really really dunno what else will happen in the future. it's been a sucky yet most eye-opening year for me ever! every incident made me discover more about my own religion (im a lousy Muslim fyi) and every incident feels like a smack from God. think He's trying to say "Stop being so cocky and dont ask so much lah!" (imagine if god really use singlish! haa). ya lah ok i am guilty of doubting god sometimes. my mother tells me that you have to believe God with your heart and not your mind and maybe that's what i've been doing all these time?? and that's why religions can also be called Faiths. cuz you needa have faith and trust with your heart and spirit that the path you're taking (aka your religion) is the right one. this "exorcist" incident is the ultimate slap and for once i stopped asking and started having more faith.