errmmm..

A heavy load had been taken off my shoulder...

first it was my leave, after a drama change of managment, i was facing a possiblity of unable to take the leave that was verbally agreed by shifu...
luckily it was finally settled...

Next was the distrubing information that i obtained regarding some accounts facts about lumos... thankfully with the support of joyce, kelvin and anglie and my mentor cherlyn, i am not alone...its also settle...

i am now distrub by what my collegude just said

" i though you were a very outspoken person who will stand up for your own right? "

dun take me wrong .. its not that she is scolding me or something...she is one of my mentors who will actually protect me in the office

it just that recently .... i have become a " yes" person in my work... i though that it does'nt seems like a bad thing to help people ya...i dun know...

but it seems that i am really a green horn in this game " politics"

i have learn to how cover my ass during work so as not to get in trouble with the managment.. i learn the importance of "CC" ing the correct people in my emails... i learn when do i have to stand up for myself against only "the right people" i learn about the ugly side of our management

I learn the ugly side of working ...

dun get me wrong again... i still love my workplace and my wonderful co workers...
they actually taught me ( the youngest) how to survive and when to keep my mouth shut..
they really protect me so much i must have look like a dummy who jus enter the work force ... its just that compared to Creative S.I ...there was never really such problem despite its at least 3 times more the people there compared to now. i never really have to be on my toes all the time man ...

so maybe to protect myself against all these new rules i learn, i tone down lot more, yak less and eventually became a "yes" servant

but .. i dun know.. i think its sometimes so tiring .. i heard so so much ...sometimes i feel so like .. can we just tell them how we feel?

i feel so light after our sunday morning lumos meeting .. i felt that as long as there is support from your friends you can always talk things thru to your leaders or your suprior ...
why just can'nt we be ourself and talk things up the management?! throw out all these protcol!

looks like such problem could never be settle ...

i really need to get out of the office... think thats one of the reason why i wanna be a OBS instructor so much.. the politics there could never be as bad i guess...
Maybe the sun will make people feel lighter ?... Thats it! its the Sun man! office where got sun shine in? ah... thats why people all feel so stuff here....

i am gonna stock up on my sun tan lotion man! cause i vow to get out and get sun!